Addy's Gift

 

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 Addy's POV

When they hear the name Adrianne Cruz isa alang ang pumapasok sa utak nila Mayaman,  Maganda, Matalino at Leader ng Cheering squad. Pero yun lang ang akala nila kasi behind this perfection there is a stain that no one knows that is hidden behind.

Noong bata pa ako i always see white images playing around me akala ko noon normal lang yun hanggang sa nag elementary ako doon ko lang na laman na hindi pala iyon normal, those things that i see are souls my mother told me na it was a gift dahil hindi lahat ng tao ay nagkakaroon ng ganitong kakayahan only few people and Im lucky enough to be one of them.

But everything change when i turned highschool i still see those souls everywhere at normal na iyon para sakin i grew up seeing them and besides they are harmless. But when i turn 13 everything became different aside from the souls that I always see, I also started to see a man wearing a black cape i can't see his face but i can see his eyes clearly, they are red and it started to scare me from the first time i saw it. It was may birthday party i invited my friends. They are all wearing pink and black yun kasi yung nagpagdesisyunan nila mommy na theme ng party. Everyone greeted me with a smile on thier faces. Pero there is something, no its was someone who catches my attention its a man wearing a black cape standing beside my friend Alex his eyes darted on mine mukhang alam niya yata na nakikita ko siya i was shocked when i saw his red eyes para akong malulunod sa kanyang mga matang nagbabaga it was like a burning fire. I didn't tell anyone about it naisip ko na baka parte lang iyon ng ilusyon ko.After the party ended everyone went home i try to find the man again pero hindi ko na siya makita i even search the whole house pero wala talaga maybe it was just an illusion, yan lang ang nasabi ko sa sarili ko before i let myself to sleep.

Nagising ako dahil sa ingay sa baba. Mom and dad are talking to a police officers i new it was a police base narin sa kanilang uniform. I know there is something going on so i ask Yaya Senya. "yaya, whats happening" noong una ay hindi pa niya ako nakita but i think she didnt hear me, so its my cue to say it again this time ay medyo malakas na. Nagulat si yaya ng nakita niya ako she never expected me to be awake this early, agad niya akong nilapitan. "Addy anjan ka pala iha" baling niya saakin. " yaya bakit may mga Police is there something bad happen?" i ask her because i was really curious. Natahimik si yaya it was like she doesnt want to tell me but i insist " yaya whats happening?" and thats when she told me what happen. Alex family got into an accident nabangga daw sila ng isang ten wheeler truck, her Mom,Dad and Sister were all stable but Alex is in Critical.

Two days had passed Alex body had already given up from fighting everyone was sad including me she was a good friend to me pakiramdam ko i didnt just lost a friend but also a sister. The funeral passed by hindi pa rin maalis sa isip ko yung lalaking nakita ko i always think that he is responsible for Alex death pero i know it was just my illusion hindi pwedeng siya ang may kasalanan non i know it was an accident so no one should be blame about it.

Years passed nasa college na ako ngayon Im taking up Business Ad yun kasi ang gusto ni Daddy para ako na raw ang maghandle ng business namin. I still see the Man with a black cape after Alex death i saw him again several times so i got curious and its already creeping me out so i decided na sabihin ito kela Mommy. When dad heard about it he send me to Tagaytay for vacation andun kasi lola namamalagi he told me that i better ask lola about what i saw, so i did it yun ang unang bagay na sinabi ko kay lola. At first mukhang sobrang nagulat si Lola sa sinabi ko, she even take medicine for hypertension dahil sa gulat niya i thought i was going to loose her so i didnt try ask her again. When lola get better she told me everything about it kung bakit ganoon ang reaction niya. It was our familys gift she says it started with our great great grandfather and after niya ay halos napasa na ito sa lahat ng henerasyon ng aming pamilya ang the last person who has this ability is my Lola's father akala niya his dad was the last one who will have that gift kasi sa lahat ng anak niya ay walang nakakuha ng gift na ito so she i think it already stopped, but then she was wrong kasi i got the gift, i dont know if i would feel special about it sabi ni lola this gift was unique not everyone can have it pero it doesnt mean na maswerte ako dahil nakuha ko ito. He told me how his dad suffer about this gift and i know it was really hard kasi napagdaanan ko na ito it is really creepy it always use to send me goosebumps everytime i saw him and i always feel guilty kasi pakiramdam ko i was responsible for their death kahit na alam ko na hindi. Dahil dito i started to go to church often, and be close to God yun kasi ang advice saakin ni Lola and i think Lola was right kasi kahit papaano nababawasan ang pagiging guilty ko sa mga nangyayari.

Before Lola passed away i see the black man thats what i get use to call him, she was standing beside her. That moment i knew Lola would go soon its hard for me to accept it. It was painful pakiramdam ko i cant do anything i was useless. I stayed beside her until her Last day.My Lola loved me so much I know it, before she lost her breath the only thing she said to me was not to blame my self and that she loves me so much. Until the funeral ended I can't stop crying si Lola lang kasi yung isang tao na lagi kong nasasandalan at siya lang din yung taong nakakaintindi sa akin i love her so much and I know she know it. At kung nasaan man siya ngayon i know shes happy right now she's with God. I know she'll be sad seeing me like this but I can't help it I know it's too selfish to think but i want her beside me all the time and that would never be possible  I know this time will come pero parang hindi pa rin ganoon kadaling tanggapin.

Years had passed  and now I am on the second  year of my college life I'm taking up Business Ad because daddy wants me to handle our business when I graduated. My high school life were boring i never had too many friends it's not that they not because they hated me. Ako lang talaga yung umiiwas Im afraid na baka maulit yung nangyari kay lola I don't want to loose another person sa buhay ko I know it's irrational Alam ko na I'm  not responsible of their deaths.I can just see it coming  but I know I can't stop it coz thats what Lola told me you can't stop natural things from occurring it will happen because it's God's will and not because someone wanted it to happen. Pero I can't help to blame my self every time I see their deaths are coming pakiramdam ko I'm useless I have this ability but I can't even warn them kasi alam ko na kapag nangyari yun they will all think I'm insane at kapag nagkataon they will surely blame me and they will hate me I don't want that thing to happen, so I choose this decision to keep myself being attached  with anyone.

I thought it would be easy on the first 3 years of my high school life madali pa para sa akin. I can easily ignore everyone, I think they are all used to it sa mga pag iwas ko alam nila na ayaw ko ng kaibigan I heard different comments from different people na maarte daw ako na matapobre ako kaya ayoko makipagkaibigan sa kanila.  I dont mind it alam ko naman na people are all judgemental,I can't stop their minds from thinking bad about me or shut their mouths, well only if they knew my reason, pero i wont tell it to anyone of course.

Until my last year In high school came akala ko it will go easily like the other years that passed, but I was wrong that's when I meet my bestfriend Sam she is the type of person na "what Sam's want Sam's get" that's her QOUTE she's totally a spoiled Bratt siya yung tipo ng taong kukulitin ka hangga't di niya nakukuha yung gusto niya and that time she wanted to be Friends with me but I refuse it of course, pero sadya talaga siyang ma kulit she follows me everywhere I go sa library sa cafeteria and even sa CR the nerve with this girl!

I don't know why she wanted to be friends with me alam kung naririnig niya lahat ng usapan sa school tungkol sa akin na mostly ay negative, kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit gusto pa rin niya akong maging kaibigan. At the end sumuko na rin ako i finally agreed to be her friend inisip ko na magsasawa din siya sa akin at siya na mismo ang lalayo, but i was wrong she never been bad to me kahit na lagi ko siyang tinatarayan she always stays jolly and hyper around me, hindi ko nga alam kung paano niya nagagawa yun kasi of i were her hindi ko ipilit yung sarili ko sa taong ayaw saakin.

It was her birthday when I told her my secret isang taon na rin kaming magkaibigan, akala ko she will be sacred with me but no I was wrong. Imbis na matakot siya sa akin tinawag pa niya akong cool na sana mayroon din daw siyang ability kagaya ko,  this girl was a crazy but I'm thankful about it kasi kung iba yun for sure they will stay away from me because they will think I'm a freak. After I told her my secret mas lalo pa kaming naging close aside kay lola noon siya lang din ang napag sasabihin ko ng lahat.  I'm so thankful na kahit na wala na si Lola ay nagkaroon naman ako ng bestfriend na si Sam. We decided to study  in the same university noong nag college kami at kahit course ay parehas din kame.

My first year in college went smoothly anjan pa rin si Sam sa tabi ko at nadagdagan pa kami sina Shaina at Janske parehas din silang business Ad.  Naging close din ako sakanila pero di kagaya ng closeness namin ni Sam at hindi rin nila alam ang secret ko i dont want to tell them yet siguro when time comes but not for the mean time.

When we turned  second year college everything went complicated Sam got a boyfriend it's James second year college din siya kagaya namin, but he's taking up Engineering. I wanted to be mad with Sam kasi she lost her time for us pero i won't stop her.Alam ko na masaya siya kay James and i dont want to be the reason kung bakit mawawala ang Happiness ng bestfriend ko i dont want to be selfish  I love her because she's not just my bestfriend but also my sister for me, sabi nga ni lola if love you someone you will support them with the things that makes them happy, and that's what I'm going to do I'm going to support her kasi mahalaga siya sa akin.

The usual things that I do became different since Sam and her boyfriend always go out together halos sa lunch nalang kami nagkakasama. At first it was hard for me I always ended up going to the library alone samantalang noon I always go here with her.

The first few months were fine although malungkot at the same time,  untill the day that I meet Eion. He was a varsity player sa school namin,  He was popular not just because of being the team captain of the basketball team sa school but also because of his good looks.

Nasa library ako noon i was making a reaction paper para sa isa kung subject. When he sat beside me and began taking to me akala ko trip niya lang yun at sadyang weird lang siya. Weeks passed at ganoon pa rin ang set up namin ni Eion he always sat beside me on the library tuwing gumagawa ako ng school works ko. At first I was totally pissed off with him coz he began following me everywhere I go just to get my whole name and number.  After two days of pissing me off I finally give up and give what he wants, after that day he began texting me like everyday at sa tuwing hindi ako nag rereply sa kanya ay pinapaulanan niya ako ng mga missed calls at flood text. He's actually like the boy version of Sam sa pagiging makulit,  when I first introduced him to Sam ay nagkasundo agad ang dalawa dun ko rin nalaman na ka Team mate niya pala si James na boyfriend ni Sam. Month pass at mas lalong lumalalim ang friendship namin ni Eion. I dont know I cant still say that were just friend kasi alam ko na more than pa doon yung relationship namin.

Until the day come that he ask to court me noong una i refuse it coz I dont wanna jump on to something as serious as that hindi pa ako ready i still have loads of things running on my mind,  but dahil nga likas na makulit si Eion ay hindi niya ako tinigilan hanggang sa pumayag ako.  When he started courting me officially kumalat agad sa school ang balita since Eion was popular,  I got a lot of bad comments from different girls from different department,  some says I'm a slut na ginayuma  ko daw si Eion and some says na inakit ko daw siya and some are so ridiculous to believe .  But Eion was always there beside me lagi niya akong pinag tatanggol  sa kanila although wala naman saakin kung ano man sabihin nila about me.

After a few months of courting me sinagot ko na siya, hindi naman siguro masama na pagbibigayan yung sarili ko sumaya minsan although hindi ko pa rin maalis yung pangamba ko. Hindi ko pa rin kasi nasasabi sa kanya yung tungkol sa ability ko, sabi sakin ni Sam na importante daw sa relationship ang trust alam ko yun It's not that I don't trust him, I trust him of course natatakot lang ako na matakot siya sa akin at lumayo siya pag nalaman niya, i would tell him soon but for now I will just enjoy the moment.

Our relationship became stronger as months passes by. Natutuwa ako sa pagiging sweet niya he always bought me flowers lagi rin kaming lumabas para mag date. I know there is no perfect relationship pero I can say that ours is almost perfect minsan natatakot ako na baka this thing wont last.

Five months na kaming in a relationship ni Eion at napagdesisyunan kong sabihin na sa kaniya ang tungkol sa ability ko siguro tama si Sam i should be honest with him kasi kung mahal niya talaga ako he would accept it and if he don't his love for me wasn't that enough to accept me. I know that this day would come pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa din ako ready.

Tapos na ang klase ko ngayon,  kasalukuyan akong nag lalakad papuntang parking lot nasa open area kasi ang parking lot ng school namin at kelan mo pang tumawid ng kalsada para makapunta doon. I cant help to think kung anong mangyayari ngayong araw anong magiging reaction niya pag nalaman niya ang tungkol sa sekreto ko would he still stick beside me or baka hindi na baka hiwalayan niya ako pagnagkataon.

Malapit na ako sa parking lot i can already see his car from here, kanina ko pa pinapraktis kung paano ko ipapaliwanag sa kanya ang lahat. Nang malapit na ko sa kanya ay agad siyang bumaba ng kotse para salubungin ako. He gave me a peck on the lips and hug me and I like it how sweet he is pagdating sa akin he always remind me how special I am para sa kanya.

Pagkatapos niya akong yakapin ay nanigas ako bigla. I saw him again the black man he was standing behind him his red eyes are staring directly on me.

"Babe are you OK?"

"Babe ano nangyayari sayo ok ka lang ba?"

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko alam ko kung anong ibig sabihin nito may kukunin siya at kung hindi ako nagkakamali ay si Eion yun. Gulong gulo na ko, I can see Eion is worried about me. Hindi ko mapigilang humagolgol. I cant take this hindi ko kayang makita siyang mawala so i decided to run I run fast as I could wala na akong ibang maisip kundi ang makaalis sa lugar na iyon makaalis sa tabi ni Eion i cant see him dying hindi ko kaya. Rinig na rinig ko ang tawag sa akin ni Eion pero ayoko kung lumingon hindi ko kaya.

Narinig ko ang pagsigaw ng mga tao sa paligid kaya na palingon ako nagkita ko ang isang truck na papalapit sa akin i know it will hit me sobrang lapit na nito sa akin at kahit pa tumakbo ako ay wala na akong kawala na estatwa ako sa kinatatayuan ko at napapikit. Mayamaya pa ay may naramdaman akong tumulak sa akin. Tumilapon ako sa side walk, when I stood up to check the one who save me. I was shock it was Eion siya ang nagligtas sa akin halos manigas ako sa kinatatayuan ko ng makita ko siyang nakahandusay sa sahig at duguan. Tumakbo ako papunta sa kanya di alam kong anong gagawin ko.

"Eion, I'm sorry please kumapit ka lang" He was just looking at me na para bang kinakabisado niya ang bawat features ng mukha ko.

"Eion please hold on dadalhin ka namin sa ospital" He just smiled at me and say

"I---lo---ve---yo--u"  yan yung huli niyang sinabi bago siya tuluyang bumitiw. It was painful seeing him lifeless para akong pinapatay ng paulit ulit sa sobrang sakit. It was all my fault I know it kasalanan ko lahat.

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Halos dalawang taon na rin ang lumipas makalipas ang aksidente nasa fourth year college na ako ngayon. Nandito ako ngayon sa library kung saan kami unang nag kakilala ni Eion kung saan nag umpisa ang lahat pagkatapos ng nangyari lagi na akong pumupunta dito. Pagkatapos rin ng aksidente nalaman ng lahat ang tungkol sa kakayahan ko and as i expected lahat sila ay natakot sa akin lalo na ang mga Fans ni Eion sa school, they all blame me for Eion's death although alam kong kasalanan ko talga iyon.  Ang daming bagay ang tumatakbo sa isip ko mostly are those  what if's na hindi maalis sa isip ko, paano kaya kung hindi ako tumakbo mababago ko ba ang nangyari hindi ba mawawala sa akin si Eion.

Parang apoy na kumalat ang sekreto ko sa school para itong bagang hindi nawawalan ng apoy. Nakarating ito sa mga magulang ni Sam, kahit sila ay kinamuhian ako they take Sam to US para daw malalayo sa akin dahil baka ma gaya siya kay Eion. It was too painful pero wala akong magawa even si Sam ay wala ring magawa. Kahit sina Janske at Shaina ay lumayo na rin sa akin or should i say everyone ignores me para akong may nakakahawang sakit kung iwasan nila. They even call me in name's such as "demonyita"  "anak ni Satanas" at marami pang iba masakit, masakit kasi nawala sa akin lahat ng bagay na importan  saakin.

Kaya ito ako ngayon nagiisa sa library my favorite spot tuwing free time ko kasi every corner of this room reminds me of him ito siguro yung mamimiss  ko pag grumaduate na ko. This room has full of memories, memories namin ni Eion, I miss him so much every single day had passed pero yung pagka miss ko sa kanya ay hindi pa din nagbabago mas lalo pa nga yata itong lumalala. I always wanted to hate my life and Question God for everything  that happen in my life yung pagkawala ni Eion at pag alis ni Sam, why life need to be this cruel for me?  Am I a bad person, everything I had was gone and it was too painful for me, pero  everytime i think of those things isa lang ang pumapasok sa isip ko si Lola. Lola always used to tell me to be thankful, thankful in everything I have whether it is good or bad, everything happens for a purpose and God has a good plan for everything at kung ano man yung purpose na yun kung bakit niya binigay sa akin ang kakayahang ito ay hindi ko rin alam pero isa lang sigurado ko he gave this gift because he got a good purpose maybe someday i will got to know what is that purpose.


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